WHY DOES THIS HURT SO MUCH?

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There comes a time in our lives when we have to come out from one place into another, even if we decide to do absolutely nothing with the lives we have been given by our Heavenly Father. Meaning, if we decide not to seek Him, ask Him for what we have need of, or whether we do nothing to invest ourselves in Him or take hold of the Promises that were given to us – as the Son gave up His life in order for us to be free – we still have to make some sort of movement in a direction to obtain what we choose to do while we are here in the earth.

My prayer is that you have chosen to place your feet at the fork in the road and follow the sound of the Father’s heartbeat as it calls you and draws you in, especially if you have chosen to surrender to this beautiful undertaking that He has so graciously presented to all of us. My hope is that without hesitation, you be able to run after Him with a relentless fire in pursuit of finding Him within the very chambers of His own heart.

Luke 11:9 “So I tell you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” NIV

As you are allowing your walls to come tumbling down, there is only one thing you can do for any of this to make sense to you, and that is to completely let go of trying to figure out why you feel the way you are feeling and just dive into the ocean of the Father’s heart. You have to see yourself actually doing this! We take so many more chances in our lives today that are not guaranteed by anything. But, we take those chances every day.

We have to focus on making it to the finish line and not let anything or anyone stop us. You have to almost become animalistic in power with your thinking. A hungry lion, a wild bull that charges with all power at its target, a Pitbull... need I say more? We have to become ferocious about this thing.

With that mindset, you won’t have time to focus on why this destruction of your walls coming down hurts so much. Cry, cry, cry out and ask the Father to hide you and to hold your head towards Him in this process. You can’t do it on your own! Tell Him that without Him during this process you won’t make it through! Fight, fight, fight! Come on, it’s in you because the Father is in you!

It only hurts because old things are passing away and ALL THINGS are being made new! You have been in the old place for so long that the movement of coming into something new in God makes our enemy, Satan, sooooooo mad! But… you have to know that although darts of anger, words of hurt, distractions to throw you off the path you are on will come at you blazing, they WILL NEVER PROSPER!

“No weapon that is formed against you will succeed: And every tongue that rises against you in judgement you will condemn. This (peace, righteousness, security and triumph over opposition) is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and this is their vindication from me says the Lord.” –Isaiah 54:17 AMP

We have switched teams! We have moved from the one place of living for ourselves into the other place of living for God! Don’t give up! It is so worth it! I remember when I started this demo-day within myself (and it’s still going on), I would run into my room and into my bathroom and bury my face into a towel and cry out so loudly as if the towel was the Arms of God, and I would tell Him all about it. I told Him how I was feeling, and that I could not make it without Him. I would bellow it out like a wounded animal, like a little girl, and ask Him to give me His peace because I was not going to give up. I would say... “But it hurts! So Father please, please!” I would then thank Him for the process and say, “whatever it takes because I know you have me in this,” and then cry some more until His peace would blanket me with a beautiful warm fire that only He could give.

The same awaits you for whatever you need during this incredible process! Yes, I said incredible, because what I was able to encounter wrapped in the Father’s arms during those times, and still, today, makes what was so hurtful look like it never existed, even though it did. As the Father shows up and you encounter Him in the most unimaginable way that you have never known before, and you will, you will see exactly what I mean. Although, how you meet Him may be different from mine, it is going to take you in and you are never going to want to leave ever again. Welcome home!